Gods Chisel

**Hi everybody! Its Sunday and for me, it's Gods day.**

This morning I went to church just like many other Christians. Today was LYF Sunday meaning Lutheran Youth Fellowship Sunday, where me and other teen Christians get to help put on the service. So church was nontraditional. Our music was transformed as well as our sermon. We got compliments and worried faces but that is what change is about. Now the main part of this post is about the sermon.

The sermon was great in my opinion. With the LYF we changed it to include a video. The video was called Gods Chisel. (Link at bottom) It was very empowering and I can guarantee that every person sitting in that room had a tear in their eye. I wanted to change at that point and it brought me thinking. If I need to stop worrying about what other people think of me then why can't other people stop judging us.

But I suppose that is hard to do. Its worth a try though. Anyways watching that video showed me how to change just a little because I had no clue how bad I really was and how much God loved me. It made me feel good to know that I was somebodies child and to know that, that somebody was God, made me feel warm and safe. It was great to feel like I could change, with him beside me, chiseling away all the bad and finding the good.

Now after everything it is so hard to change. After all the years I have lived and knowing how sinful I have become how do you change? How do you know whats good and bad anymore after you have lived so long in it?

So all I can do is pray for change, right?

Dear God,

You are the light and way but I cannot find you. You are powerful and strong but I am to weak to see. Please God help me find you and become closer to you. Help me change in ways that I do not know. Help me become everything that you want me to be. Help me be more like you. Amen.

Yours Truly,
Hannah


Heres the link. Enjoy :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3QCkBL2DfVg

Thinking What They're Not

      **Well this is my first post on here and I guess I should say welcome*.

Hi. Just a moment ago I left for my grandparents house. I always say its going to be fine, everybody loves you. But there is always that one single thought in your mind that says no they hate you. And every time I go there for a family gathering that thought becomes bigger than the rest. Tonight it swelled.

Right as we were leaving for home, a tear slide across my face and I repeated what happened earlier. No, it's nothing drastic. It's just the slightest words that get to you. I cried in the car over some silly thing that my cousin said.

She hates my bangs. Now I recently got bangs after thinking about them for a year. I love them! And why shouldn't I. They are something different from my old look and it's more me. I told her well I'm sorry but i love them. She messed with my hair and parted it, saying how much better it would look this way and pointed out all the flaws in them. Then she decided to look at my other cousin's hair and told me that her hair is great because she has no bangs. Thanks.

Ya know she is only 10 but the words still hurt and matter don't they. My mind likes to twist those words around and make them say I hate you. When really my family loves me the way I am and just show it different like all families do. They pick and tease at your weak points and its not on any single person its on everyone. I like to say I don't fit in with my family. Who think they are better than me, when really nobody is better than anybody. Sometimes they need to keep their mouths shut and I just need to stop thinking what they're not.



Yours Truly,
Hannah


P.s

Sorry for any grammar issues. I am not perfect and I am definitely not very good in my English classes. :)