Thinking What They're Not

      **Well this is my first post on here and I guess I should say welcome*.

Hi. Just a moment ago I left for my grandparents house. I always say its going to be fine, everybody loves you. But there is always that one single thought in your mind that says no they hate you. And every time I go there for a family gathering that thought becomes bigger than the rest. Tonight it swelled.

Right as we were leaving for home, a tear slide across my face and I repeated what happened earlier. No, it's nothing drastic. It's just the slightest words that get to you. I cried in the car over some silly thing that my cousin said.

She hates my bangs. Now I recently got bangs after thinking about them for a year. I love them! And why shouldn't I. They are something different from my old look and it's more me. I told her well I'm sorry but i love them. She messed with my hair and parted it, saying how much better it would look this way and pointed out all the flaws in them. Then she decided to look at my other cousin's hair and told me that her hair is great because she has no bangs. Thanks.

Ya know she is only 10 but the words still hurt and matter don't they. My mind likes to twist those words around and make them say I hate you. When really my family loves me the way I am and just show it different like all families do. They pick and tease at your weak points and its not on any single person its on everyone. I like to say I don't fit in with my family. Who think they are better than me, when really nobody is better than anybody. Sometimes they need to keep their mouths shut and I just need to stop thinking what they're not.



Yours Truly,
Hannah


P.s

Sorry for any grammar issues. I am not perfect and I am definitely not very good in my English classes. :)